Going Home

After four long days it was finally time to go home! I didn’t feel like I should be going home yet, Raegan seemed to tiny and fragile and I was not sure how I was going to take care of her and the rest of my children. I still hurt really really bad and nothing they were giving me for pain was working so I was afraid of how I was going to get in and out of bed since I hurt so bad. The pains I was having from nursing Raegan were horrible and I wanted to cry every time I fed her. My incision was burning and I was afraid it was going to tear open every time I moved. I was being sent home on blood thinner shots that my husband was going to have to give me every day for a month and I was wondering how that was going to work out. I had a whole list of instructions to follow so that my incision would heal right and I didn’t know if I would do something wrong and mess it all up. You would think after having 5 babies and 4 of them c-section I would know what I was doing, well that is not true, I knew a lot about taking care of the baby, just not a lot about taking care of me. Every baby and every c-section have been so different that I have to re learn it all. There was just so much that I worried about but I knew I had to go home and face it all. The ride home was a rough one and the pharmacy didn’t have the medications that I needed and it took a really long time to finally get home, but Raegan did wonderful in the car and slept the whole time. The first night was not too bad, Josh helped me for part of the night and we all survived.