I am so blessed!

Tonight as I sit and type this the tears seam endless. I am typing this for myself really...for me to look back on one day and remember how blessed I am. I have always known that there is a Heavenly Father who is mindful of me and of my life and my trials. I know he watches out for me and loves me. But never have I felt it as strong as I feel it now. I think of all the times in my life I could have been given this thyroid cancer trial and never did it appear until now. Why is that? Why did I find it out now and from the weirdest symptoms? I know why...because Heavenly Father knows me so well and he knew that if I got handed it right now I would be able to handle it the best. First of all because I am not pregnant and it seems like I am a lot, second because I am not nursing a baby and it seems like I am doing that a lot as well, third because my body was already healthy and in good condition. Those three things are important to me and it would have been so much harder on me to have been in the middle of any of those things. Those three things have come to my mind quite often lately and I know it's because Heavenly Father wanted me to know that he was thinking of me and that right now really was the best time for this to happen. I am so blessed and so watched over. I cannot believe the family and friends who have so graciously helped me out. The sweet comments on facebook and my blog that some of you have left me have been so uplifting. I am amazed at the love that people have for me. I thank you all for giving to me and my family. I feel like I have had my plate very full the last few years and there are times when I wondered if I could handle it, I have handled it the best I knew how and I have been truly blessed by it. I have been so lucky to have my husband home taking care of the kids and the house for me and to have him actually say that he likes staying home with us and doesn't want to go back to work is a blessing. I have been so thankful to my parents and my sister for helping me with my kids, I have had to be gone alot for the surgery and doctor appointments and it has been hard on us all and I could not have done it without my family to help. Family is so important to me and I have the best family and extended family who do so much for me. There are days that they have just shown up to help when I needed it so bad. I am so blessed!!!

I went to the Doctor today and he gave me my pathology reports.......NO RADIATION!!!!!! I could not have been happier, I fought back the tears, I am so blessed.

I have had a lump on my incision and I have been worried about it because it hurts so bad, it is nothing to worry about, it is a broken vessel in my neck!!!

We will now just try to heal from the surgery and get the thyroid regulated and get my hormone levels back to somehwhat normal so I can function and feel good again. I thought this surgery would be so easy since I have been through 3 c-sections, well it has actually been just as hard just in other ways. I now have discovered that everything I do I use my neck muscles for...ouch!!! I hope to heal quickly!!