I am so blessed

Today is fast Sunday, one of my favorite days of the month. I didn't get to go because I have kids sick with croup, not fun at all. But I am feeling this strong spirit by my side today and it has been there for so long, for as long as I have needed it. I feel so close to that spirit it is almost like a partner who walks by my side leading me around the house to get things done everyday. I am so blessed, I really am. There have been times in my life when I have thought I really cannot handle one more thing, the load is too heavy and my backpack is going to break. But the Lord takes a few things out of my bag for me and lightens my load and lets me know I am loved and that he is here. I don't know how I take care of my family or myself some days I know without a doubt that I have help with me each and every day. The warm feeling of love that follows me is so real and so near to me. I know that my Heavenly Father lives and loves me so much. My prayers are answered in ways I cannot explain. I have so many good people in my life who always know when to call or when to stop by, I am so blessed. I have such a strong testimony and through trials it becomes so much stronger. I look at other people's trials and think to myself "mine are so small I can handle them" but to me they seem so big at times. I think the Lord never gives us more than we can handle and I am a testimony to that. I am still going and I am still taking care of my family and myself and it is because of the Lord by my side every day, it is absolutely amazing to me. I have no doubt that he has not left me alone not even once or there is no way I could have taken what he has given me and kept going. I am so blessed! I have such a good family and extended family who I love so much and who take such good care of me, I was born into a wonderful family, I am so blessed. The love that is given to me by neighbors and friends is worth crying over every day. They are all so good to me and honestly I could not do what I do without you. I feel so blessed today and everyday. I am so thankful for my testimony that as a young girl was made very strong by good young women leaders, family, and friends. I am so thankful my testimony had a good foundation so when the storms came in my life my testimony stayed firm and grew amazingly strong. I love life and I love what I have been given because it has made me who I am today. I have the faith that is needed to make it through this life.

My plan this far for those of you who have been following my crazy medical stories.

Blood thinners shots once a day for a week to thin the blood and get rid of the blood clots in the liver.

Vaso dilators once a day injected into my blood stream for who knows how long to try to open up the vessels in the liver and keep them open so the blood can run through properly and so my body will be able to function normally again. After time the vessels should learn to stay open unless they are too damaged, then I am in trouble, but that just isn't going to happen.

Once they get the liver fixed the gall bladder has to come out!

So many worries yet so many blessings and prayers and most importantly FAITH to know it will work!