Goodbye for now

The dreaded day has come!! The bags are packed and it is time for me to say goodbye to my little ones for a little while. I cannot even tell you how bad I hate this, today I am mad and sad that I have to do this :( I love my kids so much and it is just not like me to leave them, I never leave them, I love to be with them. I am sad for my little boy who will not understand where I went or that I will be back, I know he will be looking and asking for me. My girls have been explained everything and they are being really good about it, which helps me out a ton. Josh will be taking me down and he will stay with me until we come home. My parents will have all of the kids at their house, I am so lucky to have them to take care of my kids for me. My sister was going to take them and then she got put on bed rest :( The kids love Grandma and Grandpa so I know they will have a good time and they will be well taken care of. I go in for surgery at 6:00 tomorrow morning and they will do the surgery at 7:30, from there I have no idea. Everything depends on what the Doctor sees and what he thinks is best. There are so many things up in the air that I am worried about and I hope when it is all over with those things were not even worth worrying about! I know this is asking a lot but there is still a tiny percent chance that this could not be cancer at all, that is what I am praying for the most. I know the odds are against me with it being in the family but hey it's worth praying for. I am going to miss my kids so much, that will be the hardest part for me! I hope when I come back that my body will absorb the thyroid medication like it is suppose to and that I will have the energy I need to take care of my kids. Are these too big of things to ask for?? Goodbye for now and when I get back I will post about Kenna's fun birthday party :) O yes and My Aunt Judy will be updating my blog and my facebook for me during my fun stay at Huntsman's Hospital!! My Faith is strong and my hopes are high :) I have done really hard things and I can do this really hard thing too!!!!